My Youth No More
I was part of the group that had brought him to us. Sure, I had been one of those with some doubts but in the end I thought it would be best for the church as a whole. Little did I know that it would destroy my ministry.
There were a number of years you might have called me that Super Christian. I was of the younger generation in the church and thus willing to volunteer for whatever needed to be done. One such thing was youth ministry. As a high school teacher it was only natural that I was drawn to the youth group. I had watched from afar, and then God stepped in and led me to volunteer to help out only to discover weeks later the Youth Pastor was leaving for seminary school and the duty of leadership fell to me.
Even stranger is the fact this happened twice. I helped hire the next Youth Pastor and then slowly stepped back to let him take over. But then with the coming of the new Pastor to our church that I alluded to earlier, things changed.
The Youth Pastor stepped down because of the financial burden the Pastor’s salary was putting on the church and the lack of support from the Pastor himself. I then stepped in and led the Youth Group again. But it didn’t last long. The lack of support was to repeat itself.
The new Pastor was more businessman than pastor. He knew of my marketing background and wanted me to go into a side business with him. When I didn’t agree things began to change. Also as head of the Deacons of the church I was seen as his competition, and a very young competition. Before long he was letting others organize things with the Youth Group without consulting me and finally the ultimate hypocrisy of his ministry was laid out before everyone to see except no one was paying attention but me.
My ministry was gone. I stepped down from all of my positions, which were many. I was tired. I was burnt out. My heart was broken and being pulled out of my body only to stick in my throat to choke on as I cried alone.
That Pastor has moved on now. Others have taken the various positions I held. Life events have taken me into a new ministry, here in this community of wordsmiths. Where I once encouraged only Youth now I encourage all ages. I share only positivity in my encouragement if not in my actual work.
God may not have brought me to the bad times and the heartbreaks, and I know He didn’t, but He is bringing me through them and to wonderful people that help me more than I could ever help them.
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